One year later

03rd October 2015. I posted a few words about self-worth.

An appraisal exercise one year later reveals that things have evolved positively simply because they were meant to.

There is a saying which goes "mieux vaut allumer une chandelle que de maudire l'obscurité".
By trying to help Vimla go through a painful process of reconstruction, I figured out that I had supported myself too. Actually I don't know if I have succeeded in helping her out totally because she still refers to death now and then but I am trying my best and whatever the outcome, there cannot be any failure as from now on. I tend to think that what really attracts me in people are those things that they hate about themselves, their vulnerable side, their phobias, their weaknesses, their illusions.

Boris gave me a book today. He has no idea what this simple gesture has triggered in me, how it has moved me profoundly. Of course, it had to be "The picture of Dorian Gray", why this book, I will never be able to fathom but it HAD to be this one because I fucking dig Oscar Wilde. I always think that if the latter was to be cast in one of today's reality show, he would totally rock it. Boris is so 'entwined' in his own complexity that it makes him disarmingly charming and attractive. Despite all his intricacies, he is actually the most normal, sensible, balanced and positive person I have met these past years. I keep saying it all the time but truth be told that the guy has a tremendous positive influence on me. It is the first time after a very long period that I have come across someone whose issues are not really...issues yet. Simply put, to me Boris is the landmark that brings it all together, a gentle reminder that there are sane and emotionally intelligent persons in this world who make a difference in others' lives by not faking it, by being themselves.

Take a zest of Vimla's craziness, Boris's smartassness, Nasreen's freshness, Akash's meditativeness, put it all in a shaker and out of it comes a nectar which provides you with a daily spoon of lightheartedness.

It's amazing how Life just tastes a little bit sweeter in endearing company.